Crazy Mother Madness

OMG
MY
BABY
IS
19
MONTHS
OLD
TODAY.

well what can I say... I guess sending photos go along way.

when is it that we start to hate someone?
when in a friendship does it turn to hate.
ok maybe hate is to strong of a word. Cuz I don't hate anyone. . . But I do dislike a lot of people. LOL

its funny I have spent the last two days thinking about nothing but people I dislike.
it started on Sunday. Damn 9-11 documentary's.

I guess its just time to let all things go.

The day of my wedding I lost my best friend. Karen. (she didn't die,just he friendship did)
Funny I thought of her a lot yesterday.

Maybe its because I saw Jess,Em and their friend Nat all hanging out. Even if Nat lives back west and Em lives in the westend they seemed to just click together.

Karen,Corey and I were like that once upon a time.

Regrets
hell yah I have regrets,
but I can't take anything back I can only go forward.

still some of the best times in my life were a oart of the worst time in my life also.

Today...Five years after the world changed and in one moment your back there.
I watched a documentary on 9/11 last night. And spent a good hour crying.
I still remember where I was and what I was doing. I remember being woken to these words world War Three Just Started. I remember watching the news CNN or CityTv and watching the plan hit. Watching the building fall. People fall. Faith Fall. I heard a phone call a husband had made to his wife and family. Saying GOOD BYE. Telling his wife he loved her. Telling his children how much they mean to him.
I never thought there was an evil out there like that. Till five years ago. I know now not to take life for granted. Because around the corner it can be taken away. Watching this TV show last night, I learned just how much my family and friends mean to me. So for all of you out there reading this please don't let another day go by with out saying I love you, to those who mean the world to you. Life is just to damn short to hate. Hate doesn't get you anywhere.




A day that changed every person.
A day that no one will forget.

well Lucas also spent time this weekend playing with daddy.


I also started Painting Lucas room up.. this is the first cartoon thingy i put on his wall.... my monkey in a plane. Its not done yet still going to add Lucas in the flag part. will share more pics as i go.

Well the weekend is over....Thank god.

Friday we went out for a drive and ended up at the beach where is took an hour to walk a ten min part of the boardwalk. Lucas likes walking off in many different areas. LOL
Saturday Gary and I went to The National Franchise Show. http://www.franchiseshowinfo.com/Toronto-sept/index.html
Gary has been thinking about starting his own business. After the show sense the grandparents were watching Lucas we came home and "cleaned". After dinner we went out for a walk to the beach again this time we made it past where we did the night before.
Today we went down to the Cabbagetown Festival http://www.oldcabbagetown.com
It sucked. Nothing was going on but the craft show by the farm. The Farm was even closed. Atleast we met up with The Murphy Group. LOL. So I got to hang out with Jess.
Then we took the kids to the park. And now we are home.

Like I said WHAT A WEEKEND.......

well we have now slept through two nights in a row..
today mommy even got to sleep in.
crossing fingers that he is going back to his old ways.

Steve Irwin, the famous Australian television presenter and environmentalist, died Monday at the age of 44 following a stingray attack.

Irwin was filming off the coast of Australia’s Great Barrier Reef at the time of the attack. Irwin’s Manager, John Stainton, spoke to reporters about the attack and said a stingray attacked killed Irwin, the barb of which struck him directly in the heart.

Irwin is survived by his American wife, Terri Irwin, as well as his eight year old daughter and three year old son.

In a written statement about Monday’s tragedy, Australian Foreign Minister Alexander Downer expressed his grief over Irwin’s untimely death and called him a wonderful ambassador for Australia, saying he will be “very, very, sadly missed.”

Funny how the first day of school brings back so many memories.
I can still remember my first day of high school. I was so nervous felt like I was going to drop dead.
I felt so out of it. But the second day was even better.
Funny how the first day is always the worst.

http://www.yourlifestorybooks.com

make your own baby story or have your child in a story with batman and so on.

Well today was the last day of babygym till the fall. Can't believe nine weeks went by so fast. We sense it was just lucas playing today(being that Quinn slept the whole class) no one really took pictures. but here is one from last springs class.
Can't wait for the fall.

Funny how a little girl talk can make things feel better. Went out for coffee last night with Jess. And we talked about everything and nothing. It was great. But its funny as we were talking I noticed something. Everything was fine.
We had started talking about people we lost. And it hit me.. It did not hurt anymore. Talking about my mom,Pat or my Aunt Nora's deaths ... None of them hurt talking about it. I have got to that point. They said I would, but I never believed it. But it happened. Not that I'm over that fact any of them died but I can talk about it with out crying. I can even listen to her song with out breaking down.


I can remember a time when I hated this song.. Not hated as OMG that is a bad song. But as it hurts everytime I hear it. Now I listen and I remember all the good things I did with my mom. How strange is that.

Funny how feelings like that come out of having coffee.
It also depends on who your talking to. And if you trust them with your feelings. (as I do jess)

Life is funny how it comes full circle.